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MY HEART'S HAVEN
A storm could
darken and thrash the skies
The sun could
wither and scorch the earth.
Yet, in the oasis of
your mesmerizing eyes,
that incandescent smile,
and your warm hands enveloping mine,
I feel safe.
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bring me along when you leave for that world, baby
At this point in time, the things I do may make it look like I'm a total slut, or someone just desperate. But the truth is, I had enough of chances slipping by because I was too afraid to commit, too afraid to love because of what people may think of me.
At the end of the day, I may lose everything, and people may make judgments but at least I know I've tried. And I suppose I might get lonely if things don't work out well... but I'm sure those that matter will stick by me.
I'm really placing a huge bet on you and I hope that this time, this time things will really work out between us.
steal my soul; 7:19 PM
I'm tired of all this abuse. I've never thought of our relationship this way until now. Because I feel guilty, because I feel like I'll always be insufficient, I let you blame me for things - for why we didn't work out, for why even though we are both trying again, we are still failing, for why you haven't quit smoking, for why you feel stressed.
Normally, I would take all the blame, let people say what they want, because after a while, people forget. But this time, it's really too much. I'm sick of all this blame. I'm sick of all this abuse. A relationship should never be like this... and I said I would never let myself go through such things. I don't know why I'm allowing you to do this to me this time. But it has got to stop.
And now's about time.
steal my soul; 11:28 PM
